Sorry there hasn’t been any recent updates on my blog, honestly I’ve been lacking inspiration. This was because I was spending a lot of my time at home, doing nothing. Things needed to change. So I joined the gym to keep me out of the house, get fit and trim down. I started seeing more of my friends and occupied my time with other things too. Things have changed in other areas as well. I mean I’m still unemployed but getting there on the job hunt. I mean after a month of job hunting I took a break, got some help with my CV and started looking at jobs in another direction. Ok, so I have to intern again, but honestly I don’t mind; I mean at the end of the day I just have more experience to add, who knows, I could end up working in a totally different area.
Honestly, I have been a little distracted lately. Certain events have happened over the last couple of weeks that have made me realise a lot of things, even look at things in a different perspective; all positive of course. There are times where I want to give up on everything really, but we all have our weaknesses. There are also times where I think “What if?” You see everyone looks back at the past and thinks it, but all these ‘what if’s’ got me thinking hard. I mean, what if I had stayed in Beirut? What if I never met the people that I love and care about? What if I done things differently? What if? What if? What if? See what I mean, I bet these ‘what if’s’ have got you guys thinking now too! Just breath, relax, make a cup of tea and get over it; it was in the past and it’ll stay there, just work out what to do next time it happens – if it happens again of course.
So Christmas is around the corner, well a month away but time flies so quickly. So I’ve been up to a lot of Christmassy things, such as teaching my Church Sunday school kids Christmas songs to sing at the Christmas lunch, getting hampers ready for raffles and buying gifts. But it’s not just the London church (St George’s) I’m helping. No, there’s another. The second church is one I have never actually seen, only it’s grounds where it was once built. I’m talking about St George’s church in Kfarmatta, Lebanon. This was the local Orthodox village church that my parents, grandparents, great grandparents (etc) and the rest of the family once attended. However, during the war of 1983 and after the Christians had fled, it was knocked down, as well the church of our fellow Maronite Christians in the same village. Graves were covered by rubbish and soil, houses we’re destroyed, it was all destruction. Finally after 27 years, Christians were finally able to go back to their homes safely; it was all so emotional for a lot of people as it had bought back so many memories only to come back find them destroyed, both churches knocked down and even the graves of their loved ones covered. Homes were finally being rebuilt and the village was finally coming back to life. There was just one thing missing – the church. Finally after talks, the first slab of the church was put in place on the 1st of August 2010. Fundraising has begun in many forms in order to raise money to rebuild the church. One event is the Kfarmatta Christmas dinner taking place in December 2010 to raise more money to help get church back up again. With so much organising and preparations to do now, we all know that it’ll be worth it in the end.
So yes I’ve been a little occupied lately but after all, Christmas is a time of giving. Honestly I am actually excited, but then again we still have another month of rushing around to do. What if we didn’t have Christmas? Would you still see all those people running around like headless chickens looking for the perfect gift or outfit? It’s those ‘what if’s’ again, they just keep coming back!
So until next time, ciao xx